Hero of my blog.

Motivated by Awosika’s recent article, I can’t help but feeling guilty for not punching the damn keys frequent enough. I am with him, agree that I may be suffering from the Hemingway syndrome, someone who has an illusion that he or she will one day release their work to the world and audience will praise them. Having said that, I am not sure if my blogposts are even as good quality as they should be. Writing about my frames of life, maybe I am lost for not deliberately positioning myself as the hero of my blog.

Often, I hold back on writing unless I crystallise an idea to a perfect level. I lost some thoughts along the way simply because I fail to write them down. When I finally ready to punch the keys, that brain wave which I had earlier just vanished without a trace. Blank and lost, I type, backspace, and retype like a million times. Picking on nitty grammar instead of chasing after inspiration, frustration scales down motivation. “Let’s try again tomorrow” and again and again. I am not surprise having stuck with one post a month to date. Why is it so hard to write a story?

Cross-checking my writing practice versus Awosika’s six-step process, I realised I haven’t been doing many things right. One thing for sure, headline is one I frequently take for granted. Sometimes, my posts garner zero hit. I fault this on wrong posting time instead of a bad headline. Naive or ignorant? I always believe that mind-map of ideas and great outline constitute toward a great story structure. Except that my ideas’ mind-mapping and outlining are done in the head, not scribbled onto paper or any sort. Because they are invisible, I don’t know how much ideas are forgone.

Then here comes my biggest challenge: write, write, and write! I am so bogged down in my perfect world experimenting ways to create the ultimate masterpiece that I spend so much time typing forward and backward, losing track of my what I intended to write in the first place. Perfectionist or in doubt of content, I must say I do tick all boxes for edit. I edit more than I write and eventually run out of lines for further edits.

Finally, I love publishing my work. A typical Leo, it’s a pride for me to share a good piece of work. Only because I couldn’t get the first five steps right, publishing is indeed far-reaching. Alas, I am not a selfish individual who likes to hoard thoughts and ideas in my head, not sharing them. All reason I have dedicated a blog portal to share my thoughts with the world. While I still haven’t figure out which audience to specifically serve and a theme angle that makes sense, I believe my audiences are those who have interest in my frames of life.

With lack of guidance, I often find myself in doubt most of the time and stuck in “what to write” dilemma. Awosika is right, I should position myself as the hero of the story and keep writing from there following the six-step process. Thanks for the enlightenment. At least, I am aware what went wrong. Am I writing enough? Soon, you will see.